I hate hopes..
I hate especially someone special in your life giving you hopes.
Hopes that you cant see, touch or feel.
Why giving that hope to me when not certain…? Making me happy for a while and drop hard on the ground.
I don’t want hope.
I dont want future.
And I can’t see it!
Leave me then!
I don’t understand, why as human begin we are holding on to things that we cant see and tell what will happen in the future? Why make ourselves feel lost and disheartening! Why do we keep on believe that there is hope! Why?
We are alwys weaving our own believe on what we hold on. But have we ever thought or ask ourselves, do the ingredient that we add in will churn out to be the best? Or will it turn out the worse ingredient?
I really don’t understand why as a human we are acting in this way?
I gone straight down to town after church service. I arrived at town abt 11am and start “printing” out my shopping list from my brain. I need to buy new curtains, table runway for my cabinet, valentine gift for my Hubert and a blanket to keep me warm in the night!
So I started off with John Little, I bought a men shirt that caught my eyes and I could pic him wearing that! It might look funny but the color looks ok to me. At the curtain session, I was caught in between whether I should buy day curtain or night curtain. Day Curtain is good because it allow your room to look brighter and Night curtain is good as it allow to reduce the heat of the sun into your room! Beside that the day curtain have this white floral color that I like and night curtain have this elegant thick and thin printed gold lines that I like too. What a dilemma! After talking to the sales girl for a while, I ended buying the night curtain with elegant thick and thin printed gold lines! Next big shopping centre I went was Robinson, sad to say I cant find anything that I needed! So I went to OG, and I finally found the blanket that is cheap and able to keep me warm in the night! After shopping for an hour, I was feeling hungry. I tried looking for the cafe inside OG- Hemisphere cafe. They put a sign saying is at second floor. So went to second floor and walk round the place for two times and I still cant find the cafe! I can smell the aroma of coffee but I cant find the place. Only when come to the third time, I manage to find the cafe! What happen was : At that moment I was standing in the centre, I look up and I saw the direction of the cafe! Oh god, how can I miss that man? I have been stupid walking round and round but cant find the cafe!
I got in the cafe, sat down and kept laughing at myself how can I be blind and not see the sign? This brought me thinking about our lifes. Most of the time, we are searching for : -
- a goal in life
- life partner for life
- a better job
- a better home
- a better car
and etc. We can be walking round and round, but still miss the sign. The sign is just right in front us but some how or rather we didnt see it! We can be bumping into the sign and not knowing that is for us! Isnt that funny? How we actually can be blind? We can even blame god for not show us the sign, not leading us to the right place! However have we thought and re look into our life, we are actually the problem to our own life! If we could settle down and listen to our hearts, we sure able to see the sign in no time! 
